I Read..

..books..

..halfway nowadays.

And now that I'm almost reaching 19, I have this regret of not reading more books when I was in secondary school. 

I used to grow up with books, having bed-time stories almost every night as a kid, borrowing up to five books from the library every week and going to the bookstore to get at least two books every month. As I get older, everything changed. Moved to an area where the nearest library isn't decent enough, books are darn expensive and the awesome state library is too far from my home. Well, I sound like complaining, but we cannot blame the people of this country for their lack of interest in reading.

As far as I can remember, I started to read less once I entered secondary school. Academic things and textbooks suddenly became the main priority. Carrying an English novel was not a style in a not-so-town-school like mine. Honestly English has forever been my favourite subject, and I love language subjects more than science and maths, but I can't state a reason why I read less other than one typical reason: I didn't have time to do so.

Gone were the days when I can just finish a novel in one sitting. 

I believe that if I had read more during my early teen years, I could probably write way better than this now. I had a very good, steady start as a young kid, alas I didn't continue with it. So kids, pick up a book today. Before you get old like me and start questioning yourself. 

And yeah, I keep on jumping from one book to another after reading each book halfway this holiday. Me too lazy or the books are too boring? :X

Just an Old Song

..which reminds me about quite a number of things..like..

- how I used to like Simple Plan's songs.

- how I listened to a lot of their songs when I was in my early teen years. Ouch. That made me sound old.

- my dreams of jamming with a bunch of people like in the MV lol.

- and ah, this is my type of music haha.

- I am obviously being nostalgic again.

- and showing signs of talking to myself.

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Been uninspired to blog. Trying hard to minimise my time online. In other words, trying to get a real life, and enjoying the true meaning of Christmas.

Feeling..errr..

NOSTALGIC

adjective

experiencing or exhibiting nostalgia, a sentimental or wistful yearning for the happiness felt in a former place, time, or situation.

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I don't know what's wrong, maybe it's just because we're coming towards the end of 2011, these past few days I've been reminiscing probably too much of the old days. Reading my inbox and sent items make me feel like reading a diary - I have messages dated back before SPM, during SPM, the holidays, the interviews, old birthday wishes, MDS stories...

...which made me smile.

This afternoon the drama playing on TV happened to play the song 'Kau Ilhamku', and ah, it brought back that funny feeling. It was the first song that I learnt on my guitar. 

'Aishiteru', the hit song before SPM among the boys in my class seems to never die. I lost count of how many times I listened to it on the bus to college, and when I return here, it seems to follow me. That's enough to remind me of the video Gab, Mav and Arbut recorded before Add Maths class. I watched it again a few nights ago and it was a wrong decision. I almost cried. No one can deny the fact that your Form 5 classmates are among the awesomest people you meet in your lifetime. 

Tonight I suddenly remembered of Peterpan's songs, picked up my guitar and played a few of them.

Sometimes it's just weird how songs can bring back those old feelings which make you appreciate on how you've spent your teen years. Honestly my secondary school life was not that bad, despite the fact that I kept on looking for the meaning of true friendship, I realise that I spent my time with a lot of different people and was never really close to a particular friend. When the time came for us to know each other well, we separate classes. New bonds start to form every year. And now everyone is moving on with new bunch of people.

That's when you feel like opening your old album, skimming through the pictures and wondering what are these people doing now. When you're thinking of them, do they even remember you? Perhaps they don't ever care to think about those memories. And that's what soon make you realise on such a fool you are for still dwelling in the past when everyone has started to carry on with their lives. 

But still the photos give you some sort of happiness as if you're living it once again. 

I somehow like the idea of the old days when we develop photos and not just store them in the digital form. Like what had happen to my hard disc, it caused almost all of my Sem 1 photos to be gone just like that. Nothing beats the feeling of holding and looking at a photo in a true, real photo form. I even felt a bit nostalgic (even though the memories have nothing to do with me) when I looked at my dad's old pictures in the 70's and early 80's. Hmm..now imagine what are we going to leave for our children and grandchildren to see in the future if we lose the digital form?

...so you thought only songs and pictures made me feel nostalgic? Gah.

YouTube is also a place that can bring some sort of sentimental feeling. Don't tell me you can't feel anything when you watch and listen to videos like the theme song of Pokemon or some random video you watched years ago which suddenly appeared in your mind once more. 

I dunno what's happening to me, seriously.

I feel..that I feel too much, sometimes.

Happy 3rd Birthday!!

:D

Day 29

Thinking about the future...

"Download a lot of movies now..then watch it when you're alone during Chinese New Year break."

Huh. Nice suggestion, sis.

So yeah, I'm currently downloading movies. And past papers. And songs. Enjoying the fast internet connection to the max while I still can.

The question now is..should I go back during the Chinese New Year holidays? Arghh. Can't imagine being alone in Akasia. In the same time, I want to save money especially after realising how much I've spent all these while. 

Planning to not go back at all next sem. Upgrading of being far away from home for 5 months. I don't know if it's a good idea, to wait till the end-of-sem holidays to finally go back. It's not that bad to be in Akasia, but if others are not around during the break, I'll feel emo-er than ever. 

...and when I see the academic calender, it crushes my heart. Next sem looks short. There's going to be a lot of things to learn. I shall make full use of the holidays.

So I'm not coming home...till May. 

I will survive.