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haak waa naai jep chan gor jep peuan jep chan gor jep meuan gan
If you are hurt, I am too. If a friend is hurt, I feel the pain too.

-Nai Jeb Chun Jeb, D2B.

Be strong, my friend.

The Last Day of 2009

I can't feel anything. I can feel nothing.

Today is 31st December 2009. Reflecting all of the things I've done (well I can only remember a few), I don't know what's my feeling. All I can remember about this year is that:

1. I had a major shock at the beginning of the year. Form 4 life was not as easy as I thought, but here I am right now. Those days are gone, millions and billions and trillions and zillions of lessons were learnt. At least I didn't walk away empty-handed.

2. Friendship. What's that?

3. School is not just about scoring As. 2009 has witnessed that I got a D grade for the first time in my entire life.

4. Laughter. The best thing I remember about this year is that I've always been laughing in class. I never felt so free to laugh I guess.

5. New guitar conflict. For months I battled with my inner feelings about getting a new guitar. I tell you guys it really was a big thing to me.

6. Without struggle there is no progress. Perhaps I was too enjoying myself.

7. Self-esteem. Extremely important.

The truth is that I've learnt a lot throughout the year, and I'm sure everyone else did, so I'm not going to waste my time to look back on those things. I know they are all inside me right now. Let's move on to the next post...

Another Week, More Great Stuffs

I'm out of ideas for the title. I know it doesn't seem to be attracting at all. There are actually lots to be told about this week, although it's only Thursday today. I can't wait for Friday or Saturday. I must post an entry, because my blog is not more than a lazy blogger's blog. You get what I mean, ah..just forget about it. I feel weird for those who can post up to 20 entries in a month.

So gladly saying my battle in UK II is gonna end TOMORROW. However I'm declaring that today is the end day. (Tomorrow's gonna be Sivik heehee..)

I bought an Mp3 player for myself last Sunday. Go on. Laugh. I'm 16 years old and this is the first time I own an Mp3 player. Must sound weird for Hi-so kids eh. Nonetheless, I thank God for building up my character as me - a person who can really save a ringgit a day until I am able to get this dream of mine. Goodbye precious money in the piggy-bank, say hello to this awesome thingy that will enable me to feed my ears with (ehem) what else? - Thai songs. Now it's time for me to cut it off from my wishlist.

This will be awesome. No need to copy Sejarah notes with brainache (new disease ay?).
I always remember Madam Yeo's tips on copying History notes. NEVER make yourself feel the burden - switch on the radio. Lols. Radio.

Last Tuesday was probably a big day - my first experience holding a drumstick with my own hands. Man, I can feel the 'feeling' inside. (I'm not talking about Cornetto you guys). Still wondering when on earth am I going to be able to hold a Fender Strat. By the way, thanks a bunch, Dila.

Song Kram Nang Fah (Battle of Angels) is gonna end next Monday, according to my 'prediction' and 'research'. Perfect ending, you guys. Don't worry. (I already have it in my mind, no surprises. YouTube is always there). Perfect timing also - next Monday is holiday!!! It's more fun to watch on tv - that's why I'm happy. :D

Tomorrow seems to be a big day for the guys in my class. There's gonna be a gig. Everyone's talking Guitar, taking Guitar and loving Guitar at the age of 16. I wish I could join them, (but I'm just a girl..) Ehee..I love it when they bring their guitars and show off their talents. It's really something that can push you to practise harder. I'm just awful. Already 4 years befriending a Kapok but still no awesomeness. (Well, there is no judge for awesomeness and attractiveness, right?) So I'll just keep on playing on my own way because I don't have anyone to teach me.

UK II stories - Add Maths, Physics and Chemistry were quite (weirdly) ok. The shocking one was Bio. Surprisingly tough. I'm not expecting much. The others were as normal.

Wow, so many things to say.
I must study for Sivik. Peace and God bless.
Thanks for reading this long and boring entry. Comments are most welcomed.

Weekly Update

Phew~
There goes another week. I'm supposed to bury my face in my Chemistry notebook right now. Today's paper was BM and Maths. Nothing much to say about those two papers. Huarghh~ I just can't wait for the holidays.

Listening to each others' problems was something so good this week. As the exams get closer, I feel the "1atm" on me. Nah, don't ask me what the heck is "1atm". One thing is for sure, I'm not the only one who is feeling like this. Worrying is just not gonna help us in anything. I'm trying to think optimistically right now. Lalala..

I'm still in the mood of listening to Nuvo's songs. However I'm struggling to control this addiction - at least until the holidays come. Right now I know and realise that I really have to do my best in this UK II.

Thank God that I guess this week has something special about it. I felt like I was given the chance to change my perception about two individuals that I used to hmm.. (not to say hate but more less like that lah). Ok, the point is I used to think that they are a little bit annoying but right now everything has turned around. I like this kind of feeling. A lot more better that hatred feelings.

A verse in one of Nuvo's song, Mai Pen Rai Lerei really caught my attention these past few days.
It is: "pae mai chai reuang yai"
From my own translation, maybe it means:
"to lose is not a big deal" -need to confirm about that later.

The point is, if I lose my battle in this UK II, (I mean if my results are not as expected), ok, let's just face it. It's not a big deal, because Sak Wan Tong Dai Dee and mai wah ja soong, kae nai gor pai teung. Ohoho..

Sweet and Sour Week

This is just a boring story. Read it on your own risk.

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Thinking of the past just hurts me. I miss my life as a Form 3 student. I miss everything about last year.

What's fun in this class that we're still not lack of guitarists eventhough our 2 great guitarists of all time since in Form 1 has transferred school ( and the other, different class ). This morning we sang together during recess time. I miss stuffs like this. I was awesome, but alas our teacher came in just as we were about to sing the chorus part of the song "Lucky". I would be glad if we really can do that everyday.

I can't figure out anything so special about this week. I missed my journal for 3 days I guess. I just feel so lazy to write about anything. UK II will be next month, I have to prepare for my oral test and also kerja kursus. Life only circulates on books, guitar and the Internet this year.

Man, something is really annoying right now. I don't think I can throw this feeling far away from me in the meantime. Ah, just forget about it.

I am still thinking that Gareth's guitar sounds a lot more better than mine. Haha. I just don't know when am I going to be able to play fingerstyle superbly.

Physics..oh Physics. I'm caught in a dilemma. Someone looks like Yodsaenklai. The class is sometimes so noisy. Someone needs to really make Physics something fun to learn. (I'm starting to say out things that no one can ever understand). Good then. I hope no one understands what I'm trying to say right now.

I cannot endure in silence.
But I have to.

This is just a bunch of crap. I know.

Hello April!

Finally I get the chance to update my blog. Phew..

Nothing much happened this week but I have to say that I feel really happy bacause of lots of things that happened in school, although as usual there are a lot of homeworks to be completed. On Wednesday I sapu the pentas because my tragic short story for the English Essay Competition got 1st place. Aha..I'm so happy. XD

My turn for BM lisan finally came on Tuesday but it was really damn annoying crap. Next time I'll make an A AA AAA sound behind the word bahawa, kita, harga and so on instead of E EE EEU sound. Man, I hope my BM teacher isn't reading this post. I am totally NOT angry with him but I wish I had known about that earlier. Huhu..

Sivik is really really really really really really boring. Luckily I can be patient with all those stuff.

It's a really fun thing to rush from the lab to the classroom for EST. XD I'm starting to become addicted to it.

Last but not least, Hello April!

Keep on rockin'

^^

Back Again

...from nowhere actually. It's just that it's been a long time since I haven't post anything. I'm starting to abandon my blog because of my busy lifestyle. Huh. The life of a Form 4 student which seems to be never ending. Stucked in eternity.

Now what the heck am I trying to say? I also don't get it.

School is as usual with lots of inspiring smiles from people around me. Yeah, and I'm loving it. The few past days were really sunny, and I'm loving it. No PE on Tuesday. I'm hating it. I love PE very much that I hope Mr. L will ask us someday to run in countless laps for 12 minutes. It's bee a decade since i Haven't done some torturing exercises. (Now that's really a lie).

One more thing that I'm in love now is English lessons. Plus EST. I'm addicted to both of them.

My past UK1 results were not really something to be proud of. One thing is for sure, it's only our first try. I'll struggle to be better. [But never separate me with Thai songs, aww..it makes me forget about boring things like Physics!]. There's still more time to try the best. Yeah.

Currently listening to Gon (ก่อน) [Before] by Modern Dog

End of post. Got to take a bath. Haha
Rock On with Thai songs!

New Specs

Yep, new specs! And I'm still wondering why am I posting this entry. So sad to leave the old one. Huhu.

^^

Peace.

Get Inspired

Sometimes in life things happen not like we expect. So get inspired. Yesterday I found a song which is really inspiring - it suits with the situation which is going to happen this folliwing week. Arghh..the UK 1 results! I know it's going to be bad. So I'm preparing myself with inspiring Thai songs today. Haha. Some of the songs which are my favourite:

Suk Wun Taung Dai Dee (Rewat Buddhinan) [Someday I Will Succeed]
Found this song yesterday.


This version is even better - lots of cute guys - Phuthanate Hongmanop, Sirasak Itthipolpanich, Peter Corp Dyrendal and Mos Patiparn!


Wat Jai (Original by Silly Fools) [This one is the Seasons Change version]


Mai Nee..Mai Pae (Clash) [Don't Run..Don't Be Defeated]
click to listen to it.

end of post. Got to take an evening nap. :)

I'm Okay..

Nothing to be worried about. I'm okay. I guess today is really a nice day.

Problems become big just when you think too much of it.

So I don't want to think about anything..

^_^

Everything is Screwed Up

The title explains it all. My feeling damn hurts right now. I'm tired of everything. Someone is hurting me, and I don't know if she realised about it. I hate it when a person hurts me. Maybe she doesn't know about it, but right now I know that you'll read this sooner or later. Please stop everything. Just stop what you did, I mean don't repeat it. I'm not born to hate anyone, but when a person hurts me, it makes me impatient. I'm not starting a fight, I just want to make things right. (Taken from the lyrics of "Enough" - Silly Fools.)

Exams are just around the corner, and I'm tired of everything. The pressure keeps on chasing me. I'm just too tired and confused.

(currently listening to Cheewit Thee Khad Thur by Pup Potato) This song gives me a strong feeling of dissapointment.