Second Week Over!

Heyyyy everyone! (Ehem, if there are anyone).

My third week here will be starting tomorrow and so far everything is fine. Perhaps because I've been through all the homesick and stuffs like that when I was in Form 1, I didn't really suffer from it this time.

Why? Well in my point of view, the people around you play a HUGE role in determining your feelings. So far I've met with really nice people, both seniors and the people in my batch, regardless from which programme or block or group they're in. Here, in this place, the introvert, anti-social, constantly-nervous Fee is slowly picking up to be brave and confident to speak to new faces. It wasn't easy, it isn't easy. A lot of seniors told us to explore during this first semester. You know the meaning. Get to know the people, the places and everything well...before you have limited time to do so in the future. You just gotta do it right. I mean explore in a useful manner. Lol. Don't worry wei, to you all who are reading this.

Ok. Social life is so far so good. What about studies? I'm doing my best to adapt myself to the new environment and technique of studying. In terms of being in the class, I think I'm the same old Fee. The one who sits at the corner. The blur one. The one who takes time to be in the same pace with others. I'm no gold and glitters yet. But I'll be good enough one day. Yes I will. (Please allow me to do some self-motivation in my own blog, ok?).

Next, spiritual life. Here, in this place, despite being far away from home and family, I somehow feel like being at home. I have the opportunity to know God more here and I can feel that I am never alone. A lot of things have changed in me during the past two weeks and I can feel it. I've met so many new faces in church and got the chance to mix with really nice seniors too.

Old friends? Yeah I still miss them, the good old days..but time passes by so quickly here. Sometimes I think I don't even have time to think. Wait, that sounds so paradoxically wrong.

Mum, dad, sisters, teachers, old friends, please don't worry about me although sometimes I do worry about myself. Time to say that's all for now...because..

I HAVE SOME CHEMISTRY WORK TO BE DONE AND I HAVEN'T FINISHED ANYTHING YET ARGGGHH!!

Just kidding. I can finish it. I can.

Ps. I miss my guitar too much so much very much right now..

Photo of the Day

My model of the day :D

Chapter 1: So Far So Good

When anybody asks me, "how's life over there?", all I can say is so far so good. Orientation week was great, even though at first my heart was filled with mixed feelings. During the first two days of the week, when it gets dark, I suddenly felt like I'm in a place where I don't belong to. The days get dark a bit more late here compared to in my hometown, and I somehow like that idea LOL.

Mornings were great although I woke up a lot earlier compared to when I was still at home. Sometimes it impresses me - waking up early without the thoughts of going back to laze around on the bed (The usual thing I always did back in home). Breakfast was great for the whole week - my favourite was the nasi lemak we had on Wednesday. I took a few pics of the foods we had just for fun. It's something memorable to think of in the future, I guess.

The facis were awesome. I really love my group, Group 1 aka OneShow. Seriously I never loved any group activities during my schooldays. I never had such a fun group like this one. And yeah I love the songs and the claps that we've learnt. Totally unforgettable! ^^

The reason why I didn't really think of home during the orientation period is perhaps that we had a very packed schedule and I laughed out loudly most of the time. I tried to be friendly and make new friends (in the end I kept on asking them again about their names because I am sooo forgetful, plus I saw a lot of different faces names and I got mixed up easily). Then yeah before sleep, I do think of home but it's not that saddening. I'm lying if I say that I'm not thinking of home and my family (and Kitty). I think of them most of the time, but in the same time I'm also happy and thankful that I'm currently here.

So don't worry guys. I'm really OK. It really is so far so good. I've grown up (and still growing up!) :D

God will make a way,
where there seems to be no way,
He works in ways we cannot see,
He will make a way for me :)

To be continued...

Time is Passing by So Fast

..and the day will come to me at lasttt.

-taken from '30 Days', my SPM song.

Excited? Nervous? Scared? I don't know how to define my feelings right now. Soon I'll be continuing my journey of life, doing something meaningful (at last) after months and months wasted by listening to music, watching TV, chatting with friends, taking long-hour evening sleeps, (and the list goes on).

I hate packing, it makes me feel melancholic. Yet still I have to do it. Suddenly I feel a sense of boundless appreciation towards the little little things at home. My pillowcase. The familiar smell of my bedroom. The radio station my mum listens to everyday. The sound of the bell on my cat's collar. Everything. Yeah everything.

In just a few days, I'll be in this unfamiliar place. I'll meet new faces and I don't even know are the going to be good or bad. I'll miss my old friends, I'll miss my family. I'm already feeling homesick by just thinking about the fact. Who am I? The girl who's never been away from home. Who didn't survive hostel life in the past. Who has a problem mixing around with unfamiliar people. Who can't even miss a night without saying "good night" to someone. Yes, that's me.

I cannot guarantee that I won't be homesick, but yeah, the moment is going to arrive. I can't run away, so I'll just have to face it. When on earth am I going to finally learn on how to be independent if it is not now? Part of me says I can do it, but part of me knows I'll have to take some time before I get used to it. Honestly, I'm a bit ready. I've been defeated once, and I'm not going to let it happen once again. This time I'll survive hostel and college life.

Why is this entry so emo? LOL

It's not that I'm going so far away X)

Yeah beware. The geek part of me is about to return. Bwahahaa.

Before June Ends

Before this month ends, I proudly present my latest template/font/design
and
this short, meaningless, insignificant, unimportant (as usual) post.

Where have I been all these while? Why no blog posts at all? Why? WHY? I'll give you my typical answer.

Nothing much has happened lately. I'm back to my old hobby of playing Insaniquarium, indulging myself with the insanity of clicking gold and silver coins dropped by guppies. I download songs every night. I log in to YouTube everyday. I sleep at 3. What's so unusual about that?

So hello future Fee, look what were you doing in the past (this is of course my self-monologue in the future. Duhh.)