One Month Later

Tomorrow.

Tomorrow is no ordinary day. It's my going to be my housemate's Physics test day. It's Core Maths day. It's the day I come back late every week. It's Wednesday!

So what? Tomorrow, the 3rd of August 2011 will be the witness of my survival in this place after a remarkable one month period. One month?!! Yes, I managed to be far far away from home for 1 month! Time for some upgrading. Give me another one month! No problem.

Liar, you will say to me. What made me survive this time? What made me not feel extra super duper homesick? What made me successful in not repeating my Form 1 history of running away from boarding school? The answer is not what, but who.

Being far away from your loved ones, you need some new people to show you love. Okay. Stop thinking about what you are thinking right now. I'm not going to say I met a guy and bla bla bla. I just want to say that I've met with a lot of amazing people here, seniors and people in the same batch alike. All from different hometowns, different races, yet their friendliness and kindness sometimes makes me ponder...before coming here, I listened to a song that said:

"In the end sincerity will have no meaning at all"

This is not what I can see here. Seniors show care to you, friends are so far so nice. Sincerity does have meaning. It made me tell myself I am not alone every morning when I take my shower with a reluctant heart to start the day. The kindness of the people I know here keeps me going, constantly living every moment with hope because I know I am not alone. What will you feel if one day you discovered somewhere, people have your name in a list and even before you know them (even before they know you), they have been praying for you. I've just found out that fact a few days ago. While we were busy with our MDS (orientation week), filled with both agony and excitement, there were seniors actually praying for us. Praying that we'll not feel homesick, praying that we'll have courage and strength. From the bottom of my heart, I would just like to say thank you very much to the seniors from Campus Alive!

I know that my mum must be very happy to know that my life here is OK. Don't worry everyone in the house :) God is watching over me :)

Oh ya, new story to tell. Thanks to Caryn, my senior, I had the chance to play guitar over the weekends till todayyyy (played during Campus Revo - my ears felt hot, I was actually nervous) :D It's been a while..my fingers hurt and I feel like a beginner. Yet, I managed to write a new song! It somehow tells about my feelings right now. I didn't manage to complete it before returning the guitar, but maybe I can continue it next time. The verse and chorus goes like this:

Looking at the sky on a dark night,
I always know that You are so close by my side.
Feeling down and lonely on a sunny day,
I can only feel the wind and say it's gonna be OK.

Coz I wanna stand up firm and say,
I can make it tomorrow and today,
and I (.....*cannot think of the lyrics here*)

Give me hope when I feel down,
Give me faith when I am lost,
(...*to be continued*...)

Yeah I cannot think of the lyrics after that. Part of the song was written when I was alone in my room. Part of it came into my mind when I was on the bus, on the way to church one Sunday afternoon.

I guess this is long enough. I should stop typing now and go back to my beloved Core Maths textbook. Till we meet again in another chapter.

The Chronicles of FOOD

Ever since I've been here, snapping pictures of food before consuming them has become my habit. I guess there's nothing wrong with that, right? At least I have something to blog about just after Week 3 ended :D

ps. Sorry dad I broke the promise. I had instant noodles for lunch last week (for only ONCE). Mwahahaa

Second Week Over!

Heyyyy everyone! (Ehem, if there are anyone).

My third week here will be starting tomorrow and so far everything is fine. Perhaps because I've been through all the homesick and stuffs like that when I was in Form 1, I didn't really suffer from it this time.

Why? Well in my point of view, the people around you play a HUGE role in determining your feelings. So far I've met with really nice people, both seniors and the people in my batch, regardless from which programme or block or group they're in. Here, in this place, the introvert, anti-social, constantly-nervous Fee is slowly picking up to be brave and confident to speak to new faces. It wasn't easy, it isn't easy. A lot of seniors told us to explore during this first semester. You know the meaning. Get to know the people, the places and everything well...before you have limited time to do so in the future. You just gotta do it right. I mean explore in a useful manner. Lol. Don't worry wei, to you all who are reading this.

Ok. Social life is so far so good. What about studies? I'm doing my best to adapt myself to the new environment and technique of studying. In terms of being in the class, I think I'm the same old Fee. The one who sits at the corner. The blur one. The one who takes time to be in the same pace with others. I'm no gold and glitters yet. But I'll be good enough one day. Yes I will. (Please allow me to do some self-motivation in my own blog, ok?).

Next, spiritual life. Here, in this place, despite being far away from home and family, I somehow feel like being at home. I have the opportunity to know God more here and I can feel that I am never alone. A lot of things have changed in me during the past two weeks and I can feel it. I've met so many new faces in church and got the chance to mix with really nice seniors too.

Old friends? Yeah I still miss them, the good old days..but time passes by so quickly here. Sometimes I think I don't even have time to think. Wait, that sounds so paradoxically wrong.

Mum, dad, sisters, teachers, old friends, please don't worry about me although sometimes I do worry about myself. Time to say that's all for now...because..

I HAVE SOME CHEMISTRY WORK TO BE DONE AND I HAVEN'T FINISHED ANYTHING YET ARGGGHH!!

Just kidding. I can finish it. I can.

Ps. I miss my guitar too much so much very much right now..

Photo of the Day

My model of the day :D

Chapter 1: So Far So Good

When anybody asks me, "how's life over there?", all I can say is so far so good. Orientation week was great, even though at first my heart was filled with mixed feelings. During the first two days of the week, when it gets dark, I suddenly felt like I'm in a place where I don't belong to. The days get dark a bit more late here compared to in my hometown, and I somehow like that idea LOL.

Mornings were great although I woke up a lot earlier compared to when I was still at home. Sometimes it impresses me - waking up early without the thoughts of going back to laze around on the bed (The usual thing I always did back in home). Breakfast was great for the whole week - my favourite was the nasi lemak we had on Wednesday. I took a few pics of the foods we had just for fun. It's something memorable to think of in the future, I guess.

The facis were awesome. I really love my group, Group 1 aka OneShow. Seriously I never loved any group activities during my schooldays. I never had such a fun group like this one. And yeah I love the songs and the claps that we've learnt. Totally unforgettable! ^^

The reason why I didn't really think of home during the orientation period is perhaps that we had a very packed schedule and I laughed out loudly most of the time. I tried to be friendly and make new friends (in the end I kept on asking them again about their names because I am sooo forgetful, plus I saw a lot of different faces names and I got mixed up easily). Then yeah before sleep, I do think of home but it's not that saddening. I'm lying if I say that I'm not thinking of home and my family (and Kitty). I think of them most of the time, but in the same time I'm also happy and thankful that I'm currently here.

So don't worry guys. I'm really OK. It really is so far so good. I've grown up (and still growing up!) :D

God will make a way,
where there seems to be no way,
He works in ways we cannot see,
He will make a way for me :)

To be continued...