He is Awesome

I HAVE to blog about this.

Yesterday it was supposed to be my turn to present my English decision making speech. The night before, I did some final touch up to my slides and finished doing so quite early, around 10.30pm. Feeling nervous but quite ready to face the next day, I went to bed without the slightest knowledge on what will happen the next day. All I knew that I just couldn't wait for the evening to come, as it was going to be my first time experience of serving for CA. 

The next morning (yesterday), everything was as normal, I got ready earlier than any other days and felt so excited to start the day. After the prayer meeting, we went to our respective classrooms and as for my class, we immediately started the presentation. I knew my turn was going to be quite late, so I relaxed first and decided to just switch on my laptop when my turn came.

Right before my turn, I switched on my laptop and guess what had happened. I had problem with my laptop, it could be switched on but couldn't enter the system. After some failed attempts to solve the problem, I gave up and accepted the fact. I thank God we had not enough time for everyone to present the speeches, so we had to continue it the next day (which is today). My mind was thinking about a lot of things. People were asking me whether I backed up my slides in my pen drive. Then I realised what a huge mistake which I've made. I didn't do so. Everything was so unexpected. 

With anger and despair (and feeling worried), I didn't know what to do but to blame myself and the Ethics presentation we had the day before. I felt like blaming someone and releasing my anger to someone, but because there was no one, I had to just keep everything inside. I walked out from the classroom (as we had to go to the lab after that), feeling really bad. From far, I saw my friend Kar Suan at the corridor. Thinking back of what had happened, I just knew God provided me a shoulder to cry on without me even asking for it. It was not coincidence that Kar Suan was standing there. I immediately went to her and told her everything. I didn't even realise that tears were flowing down my cheeks. She gave me a hug, saying that everything will be OK. I just don't know what I was feeling that time, I guess it was a mixture of feelings which made me feel awful.

I walked alone to the lab, but turned back and saw my classmates Fatin and Nadiah a few metres right behind me. They showed me that they also cared about what had happened, after asking me to cheer up, they suggested some solution to my problem. In the Bio lab, I couldn't even smile as I was worrying too much. How am I going to do all of my future assignments without my laptop. More importantly, how am I going to present my speech the next day?

That afternoon, I was in the same bus with Kar Suan. When we reached hostel, she offered me her help, which is to redo my slides using her laptop. So I followed her to her house, feeling quite bad for troubling a friend. After about an hour, I managed to do a decent presentation (did it halfheartedly), still thinking of my slides which I've prepared earlier which were far better than that one. I kept on questioning why? Why did such thing happen to me? Then Kar Suan's answer awakened me. It's OK, this is God's way to let me share His love to you. I thought of it again and I felt embarrassed for my previous feelings of anger and worry, as if there was no solution to the problem.

When I returned to my house, everybody haven't returned from class yet, so I was alone, thinking more about what had happened. I needed someone to talk to, but I didn't want to worry my mum, so I called my sister. It didn't even make me feel better as her remarks worried me more and made me blame myself more than before. So I called my mum, thinking that only her voice can calm me down. As I told her everything, I cried again. It was such a bad feeling.

I finished my conversation and there was still nobody with me in the house. It made me feel lonely and as if no one cares. Then something struck me. I forgot to do something. Talk to God. Since He promised to hear us whenever we cry out to Him, I knew that He is my only hope. So I prayed, saying everything that came across my mind. One of my main worries was not being able to serve for CA cheerfully that night. I didn't want that to happen. So I prayed more and more until my housemate Queen returned from class. Her presence in the house made me feel OK and I slowly forgot about the laptop for a while.

That evening, right after my other housemate Jing (whom I call a genius and tech-savvy person) returned from class, I asked her to check on what was happening to my laptop. After several attempts, in just a few seconds, the laptop was able to be switched on normally, as if nothing had happened before. The first thing that came across my mind was what I had asked God in my prayers that afternoon. Immediately, I took my pen drive and backed up the presentation that I needed. I praise Him for listening to my prayers and giving me that chance to back up what I really needed.

That night I gave my all during CA, praising Him as I knew that He has done something special to me before that CA gathering. I didn't even think of my worries anymore for the whole night.

And yeah, I woke up this morning as usual, but with some thoughts that the same problem might occur again today. However, I wasn't so worried because the slides that I needed were in my pen drive and I can borrow any laptops from my classmates later on. My thoughts weren't wrong, as I tried to switch it on this morning, the same problem happened. But this time I learnt my lessons. I managed to present my speech using my classmate's laptop. As I returned home, I tried to switch it own again but nothing happened. So guess what? If yesterday he heard my prayer and answered it, why not I continue to pray today? Therefore I prayed again, this time with more faith as I know what happened yesterday was not a coincidence. This evening, after several attempts (again), it came back to normal again, and I switched it on again tonight, hence I am here, typing this out to share how awesome He is. It might be a small story to you, but for me, it is something remarkable to know that God showed his love and care through people who are close to where you are, and when you feel like there's no solution to your problem, He's actually there to give you a solution.

Good night :)

The Journey Back

It's Tuesday today! I can't believe I didn't even touch my laptop yesterday! Here I am to narrate my adventures back to this place where mornings are so long, yet evenings and nights are so short :P hope you got the message.

Didn't feel really emo as the car left the house. Perhaps because of the nap right after returning from church haha. Felt like I forgot something, and yep I was correct. I forgot my hairbrush. Let's just skip these not so important details.

Time went by pretty fast. After taking lots of pictures, all I realised that I was already in the plane, once again sitting beside the window (woohoo!) with two other guys at the same row. Perhaps it was some sort of delayed emotion, I only felt something wrong during that time, right after the plane began to move. To be honest, tears were glistening in my eyes for no apparent reason. Maybe it's fear or perhaps it's the feeling of disappointment for not being able to wake up late again after this. I did drop a tear and quickly wiped it away with my sweater. I knew it was just some silly feelings playing a prank on me. I'm not that sad to leave my hometown. There are a lot of things which I'm looking forward to here. That doesn't include studies and assignments.

And yeah like my secondary school senior told me before, flights are boring. I didn't feel any excitement like what I've experienced during my first flight this year lol. Slept and woke up for a few times within the 1 hour and 45 minutes journey. It was a cloudy day and it wasn't fun when the plane kept on hitting the clouds. There was one terrifying moment when the plane felt like falling (kids in front were so excited, giggling and saying it felt like being in a roller coaster). My immediate reaction was to grab something close to me (luckily not the guy's arm beside me) and it was actually funny that we both held the chair handle (or whatever you call it) spontaneously. After that I came to realise that kids are more courageous than adults. While my heart felt as if it had jumped out of my throat, the kids were giggling. Talk about the fear of dying too early. Hah.

I am not supposed to take any pictures. I didn't know the rules until a guy signaled us not to do so.

 Nothing special happened when we arrived, unlike the moment when we reached Kuching with huge grins on our faces. No one's there too pick us up. We haven't even really arrived yet. So yeah, no sigh of relief. 

Reached kolej at about 5.30pm. Felt empty inside out. With an empty stomach and empty heart, I forced myself to act cool. I succeeded until today. Still cool and alive. Every individual has a reason for his or her journey. I have one too. And yeah big girls don't cry.

Get ready for another sequel of this journey. Heh.

Dramatic enough?

Back in a Few Hours

Bye bye cozy bed. Say hello to bantal yang keras macam batu (yeah I'm okay with that, it's just the way I describe it). Bio report. Done. Ethics presentation. Completed it a few minutes ago. English speech. Alamak.

Oh well, now I realise how much I've procrastinated. I blame myself for my laziness. Lessons leart: do your homework during the first few days of your holiday. You'll never regret.

I'm afraid.

Afraid that I forgot to complete one of my homeworks. I'm forgetful and lazy. What a combination.

Afraid that I'll feel homesick when I return to you-know-where tomorrow. My feelings are unpredictable yo.

Afraid that the flight ticket for my end-of-sem is going to be too expensive. Have to book quickly eh.

Holiday has been awesome, but I'm not going to go far with this type of lifestyle. Two sleepless nights because of Bio report (it was fun yo!). Playing Angry Birds (now I know how fun it is!). Relaxing is fun, but it's not cool.    I need some self-discipline in my life XD

So yeah. Fourteen hours left.

Day 4

Or is it Day 5?

Finally went to somewhere today! :P Church this morning was awesome! Good to see familiar faces again (although I miss the familiar faces in you-know-where too!). Try to guess where did I go after that? Tadaaaa~

I have no idea why did they decorate the stage like that. Hari Raya theme? Maybe.

The answer to my own question. I went to da good ol' Spring! Kuchingites love tHe Spring! (Well, I assume).

I dunno what happened to me. Suddenly snapping random pictures.

Bringing my habit in the land of you-know-where back to my hometown.

Seriously (I think) these 2 cute guys are new stuffs. Never seen them before.

I never noticed this before. You-know-where has taught me to become more observant, I guess.

THE MAIN AGENDA. My old specs (the one that I'm currently wearing) had created much havoc to me. I couldn't see what's written on the whiteboard from my seat in the class. I couldn't recognize my own classmate when I passed her by one night. I even hesitated to help someone because my eyes (or that pair of specs) were fooling me, saying that that's not the person I think I saw. This happened a month ago, I think. It made me feel awful. Isn't it sad when you can't even judge from your eyesight? (Emo again, quick quick change topic!).

Hence I decided to bid farewell to the old specs, the one I've been wearing since Form 4. I think I made a blog entry about that 2 years ago. Based on the picture above (huh?), I think I can open an optic shop now, selling second-hand specs. The cool harry potter-like sunglasses were bought when I was around 5 years old, I think. I'm glad I still kept them! I started wearing specs in Primary 5 and now I can't imagine a minute without my specs. They're my best companion. Sometimes I nap with my specs on (for better vision when I dream, maybe?).

So yeah, enough with the specs story. I'm not even wearing the new one now. Felt dizzy for some reason. I usually take a really long time to adapt myself with new things, including specs :P

Thennnn...I sent my guitar for service since I never did so. Just wanted to know what will they do to the guitar before the service period ends :P Since the guy suggested that I should change the strings, I just agreed. The last time since I changed them was last December - and the last set of strings were damn expensive, I regretted for buying from that other shop last year. LOL. The new set which I changed to just now is as good as the old one, yet far more affordable and reasonable. Overall I'm satisfied by the service provided. Happy with the new strings :)

Bought a new pick too! I love collecting random things, so I decided to add another pick into my collection. It's the orange one in the picture. My favourite one now. Before this I always use the one next to it. The new one is thinner. I'm loving it! Every pick in the picture has it's own story. I bought the first one when I had my first guitar. It's extra thick. Being a noob that time, I never knew it wouldn't like it. The second one is freeeeee (that's why it's PINK, ok..). Got it when I bought my second guitar. Third one is also freeee. Found it when collecting rubbish (prefect's job every morning) in front of the school hall. Since nobody was there, I took it haha! Fourth one burnt a hole in my pocket. RM3. I was still a secondary school student during that time T_T that's why I love it the most.

See..I started very humbly. My first set of strings was the cheapest one available. As I get older, I seem to get choosier. Kids nowadays..hmm.

All brand new!

Photo of the day. YUMMY!

Back to Bio! Bye :D

Random

My blog has been lacking pictures lately, so yeah I'm just going to put some random pictures taken by using my humble 2.0MP phone camera.

The proof that we studied really hard for Chemistry.

Legacy left by housemates. Censored just for fun.

Waiting. LCCT yo! That's not my bag :D

HOME yo! Kitty relaxing on my guitar bag. I don't usually allow her to do so.

It's always 7.12 am/pm yo! This holiday will never end! Woohoo!