Writing a Song

Not sure whether it's going to be finished, but I'm in the mood of writing something.

Something that sounds like this:

Lots of photos, lots of questions,

Unresolved doubts, and appreciation.

I'm still unsure of the main thing I'm writing about, and yeah, from those two first lines, it's hard to tell what do I really mean. I was just so bored two nights ago and flipped through the detective book which I'm still struggling to finish. My eyes caught a sentence on one page - "Lots of photos, lots of questions."

I know a song which was written this way. I mean by opening a random book. So I said to myself, okay, let's give it a try. I really do hope I'm finishing this one...

Wrong Words, Right Words

Have you ever been in a situation where you find yourself having a difficult time expressing your thoughts, afraid that you might offend someone you really care about?

A few days back a very good friend of mine lost her mum. And I found it really hard to tell her how much I care. We're miles away, there's no way I can give her a hug, and honestly, words being typed and spoken through the phone are so hard to convey.

I wanted to say "Stay strong", but who am I to tell her to stay strong when I don't know the pain she's going through.

This made me think back of something a friend said to me perhaps a year ago. Sometimes people do care, but they do not know how to react, or say the right words. 

I just hope I didn't become a useless friend. I just hope I said the right words.

This Song

I fell in love with this song. The whole thing - the lyrics, the melody. Been listening for days. If I get to write my next song, I have to admit it will be heavily influenced by this one. Till now, my attempt in writing one has failed. I just don't have any idea on how I should pen down the thoughts that I'm having since I left college. I have so many things to write about, but sadly, I can't make it sound poetic enough. And one important thing, I can never force myself in this thing called songwriting. It has to come naturally, when I'm unaware, it just has to simply come from my heart.

We sat on the ride home,

singing our favourite song,

reading the line on the side of the roads,

it tells me, "You're not alone."

Beautiful

This is next in my wishlist.

I found this when randomly Googling for guitars. This would be a perfect gift for my birthday haha. I admit, my heart never left my birthpace, although sometimes when I think back, there's no way that I can live there once again in this lifetime. Even if I have the chance to go back, I don't think I can, because looking back, my character seemed to be shaped based on my experiences here, and not there. 

But well, daydreaming is sometimes quite fun.

Yo August

I'm writing this down tonight just because I want to reread something I've written on the first of August this year, and so that something on the first of August appears on my blog archive as seen on your left hand side.

Well well well. Time really does fly. I'm getting nearer and nearer to the dreadful date, and there's no way I can prolong the inevitable, other than doing things that do not give me any worries at all, such as watching random movies and trying to finish the detective book which is, apparently, so hard to finish.

One of my friends on Facebook keep on updating the countdown to the day, which of course, reminds me that time is passing by so fast, and all these fun of nothingness will end pretty soon.

In a random story, I've gained 5 kg since the last time I weighed myself, which was probably around one and a half year ago.

I'm starting to behave like typical girls who say they're fat even when in reality, they're not so fat. This, in turn, reminds me of my housemate who says I'm just like those girls whenever I complain to her that I'm fat. I don't know. Ever since turning 20, I begin to have a lot of weird thoughts including being in a relationship and all those stuff.

One thing I also realise is that I no longer enjoy watching action movies, one thing which I really liked since I was 12. Nowadays I cringe when seeing punches being exchanged. And I start to have this weird interest in romantic comedy movies. Or just romantic movies. And think about how my first date will be. And how is the personality of my first boyfriend. Like seriously..I think I'm evolving into an unknown pokemon woman.

Anyway, I told you this is not going to be a good entry at all coz it's just one of those days when I feel like updating something random and silly, so yeah, see you soon in a better blog update.