Alive

I f someone asks me how am I this week, I wouldn't lie.

I would say that it's been an awesome week, despite the topic tests and the long long days.

I find contentment in the tiredness. What's the secret?

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Before I start to get personal, I want to clarify a few things.

Firstly, I feel it weird to know that there are actually people reading my blog, and those people are who I know and meet almost everyday. Because I treat this blog over the past few years more like a diary or scrapbook or whatever you classify it as , it's hard to break the habit. When I feel like I need to speak out personal matters, I just do it.

..and it's embarrassing most of the time.

Especially when I get emo one day and happy the other day.

Second thing, believe me (it's up to you to do so), most of the time I come out with a new entry, I'm actually talking to myself. 

...but of course I welcome readers. However sometimes I wish I don't know who my readers are. It's just that awkward feeling of wanting someone to know your thoughts but at the same time wishing that..that..that..

I dunno how to explain. So I will stop explaining. :P

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Back to the main thing.

Exactly one week ago I was away...in a land called far far away.

Of course I was just kidding.

...I was attending my first church camp ever. Because I've been sharing about too many emo stories, I strongly believe that this happy story deserves to be blogged about as well. 

but after thinking and thinking and thinking on how to blog about it in a not so personal way, I fail to think of any other alternatives. To cut it short, (because I still want to share but I don't want to share too much) it was an awesome weekend which opened my eyes...to not just sing about the beauty of life, but wake up every morning feeling refreshed, feeling loved, feeling...feeling...that actually I can do all things because He gives me strength! 

I've been suffering sleepiness in class ever since I came to this place. Most of the time I try hard to not fall asleep, because it's something that I really hate - dozing off in the middle of lectures is not cool man. Last sem, I tried various methods, including slapping both sides of my cheeks. (I'm not kidding this time). But you know what? It never worked, probably because I relied on my own strength and never asked.

This whole week I never forget to pray about it. Well it might sound funny to you, but believe me, I believe that in the past 5 days I never fell into chronic sleepiness in class because I prayed about it and God answers prayers. It might sound like something so small...but soon I realise the more I rely on Him for strength, the more He will help me through everything.

So now..the main thing is to keep on moving 1Up, which is something that I need to be reminded of occasionally I guess. 

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So how was this week? Ah, it's been just nice. Maths lecturer hasn't returned the paper which I screwed up in (I think), so I'm a bit happy that I slowly forgot about how awful I felt when I simply had to write anything that came across my mind. English writing test was fun, but waiting for the outcome is not fun. I liked the topic of arguing whether money can buy happiness. If I manage to get back the paper with a smile on my face, I'll share my essay here..because I said ow yeah wealth guarantees happiness. Now you're thinking that I'm insane. Thank you.

Chemistry test this evening was...(fill in the blank). I was struggling to answer the first few questions and time was so limited...and to make matters worse, the lecturer stood in front of my table, staring at my paper, probably waiting to see my silly answer :P So I lifted up my head. She got the signal, smiled, and walked away. Ow yeah.

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For the whole week I've been saying that "Oh it's going to be a long day..", yet it's incredible that time was enough for everything. I'm hoping the same for next week.

Yes, I am busy. I have a Bio report still 15% not completed, I have a few chapters of Maths homework yet to be done, I haven't read my Bio and stuffs, The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde is waiting for me, my laundry is piling up...

and I dunno why I just can't stop blogging.