Sunday, June 3, 2012

I'm Back

I'm back from boot camp and I'm in the most disciplined state like never before.

Just kidding, of course.

I've been away from the internet for so long till I don't know where to start. So I guess I better don't start. But I'm thinking of saying something since I haven't really been saying anything lately. Oh my, what happened to my language.

Anyway, logging into fb after a few days away is so now fun, when a) You see pictures that make you jealous; b) You've missed something that you wanted to join; c) You're kinda lost seeing all the updates although you've been away for not even a week.

One big news is that I've managed to gain back what I lost in SA, talking about my body weight here HEHE. Away from the internet is a pretty good thing, making me so desperately bored and and you might not want to know what I did. I studied Bio Topic 6 teehee. It was unbelievably fun. The 5 hour journey made me ponder about some life issues things that I would really like to blog about, but I don't think I'll be that free after this. 

So basically 5 days in boot camp was all about family reunion, playing angry birds with my two little cousins, a bit of Bio (I can only remember Rigor Mortis), photographing things around, and and and...

If you know me long enough, you'd probably know that

"My ultimate dream is to jam on a rooftop"

So..

Well, didn't really jam, but close enough, I guess. My grandma was pretty angry when she found out what I did. Well, don't worry, she wasn't angry that I might have killed myself, but rather because I might  cause damage to the rooftop.

I'll be back with some philosophical posts, maybe. 

Bye.


Friday, May 25, 2012

Summer and Raindrops


I can feel that this is going to be my last original song for the time being, particularly because it's not normal for me to have new ideas in a continuous period of time. The most I can do so far is to write one song per month, and I'm not aiming to go beyond that.

Thank you for those who have been following my songs, despite having to bear with my awful vocals. I appreciate their courage in clicking the play button.

Till we meet again, sometime, someday.

Fee.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Song Number 8

So there was this sudden tune in my mind when I strummed some random chords a few days ago.

Started taking it seriously on the 18th and managed to complete it on the 20th. 

Like most of the songs I've written before, this is just another simple song which won't really stick in people's minds. The reason I keep on doing this is simple - when you really love doing something, you don't need to find a reason why you keep going on, because no matter what the outcome is, you've enjoyed what you've done. Let's just say I'm one of those people who enjoys expressing thoughts and feelings through words and music. The ones who have the desire to be noticed but unnoticed at the same time. Hmm. I've just found a sentence I can use to describe myself. 

Enough with the long-windedness, here you go:

RAINDROPS IN MY SUMMER

Verses:
You
came into my life just like a morning dew
sunset with a purple hue
Just like a dream
yet so true

You
make my heart skip a beat or two
hum songs that make my days brand new
Make me tap my feet
'cause in my heart there's a tune

Pre-chorus:
Do you know the feeling?
Dancing on the dry leaves I'm stepping
Walking on a sunny day
The strong breeze hits my face

Chorus:
You might be the raindrops in my summer
But don't you know you're the sunshine in my winter too
The sounds of wind in autumn are your whispers
As the flowers bloom I see your smiles too

Everything around me
just reminds me of you
Yes, you!

*Instrumental*

Bridge:
Maybe I look like a fool dancing in the rain
Maybe it's hard to forget the pain
but rain or sunshine in my summer I don't want to care anymore
All I want to do, is to thank you

Ends with chorus
___________________________________________

And as usual, here comes the long story, so that I can refer to this one day and laugh at my own innocent 19-years-old way of thinking.

You might have your own interpretation, you might see this as another typical love song, you might feel geli about the lyrics (haha) but chill, chill, I don't write stupid love songs (well maybe I do, unintentionally).

I'm very particular about lyrics, I don't only listen to songs just for fun, that's one of the reasons I write lyrics for myself. Sometimes I just can't find a song that really tells about my feelings.

The reason I chose "Raindrops in My Summer" as the title is because I love songs and poems that talk about seasons. To me, Raindrops in Summer symbolises something good, yet bad, something you can love, yet hate, and I think it carries the meaning of the whole thing I'm trying to say in this song. In life, there's always a person who can be harsh to you, scold you, neglect you, abandon you, or ignore you, but when you love that person, you can never really hate them. I'm not talking about lovers here. Or crushes. I'm talking about other categories of people and I leave that one for you to figure out.

My first listener didn't like this song because she said it sounds like another depressing love song. 

But I can assure you that this song is very different from the others songs I've written, mainly because I tried to avoid direct usage of words in conveying my meaning because I didn't want to make everything too clear. Every single feeling, every single thoughts have been linked with the surroundings - the things you see and do on a typical day - step on dry leaves, watch the sunset, hum songs, tap your feet, etc. The only two clear things are the end of the chorus and the end of the bridge.

I also managed to write something for the bridge, which is not normal for me to do because I always run out of ideas. I figured out an instrumental solo on my guitar as well, but since I don't have someone to help me play that part (considering that I need to play the rhythm at the same time), I had to omit it while recording.

I love this song, but still I think gone are the days when I can write something as good as Smell the Rain. (I said 'good', not 'great' - yes, I know the difference between those two). XD

Will upload this once I get 20 views for the previous song. No kidding. Lol.

Time to sleeeeeeeep.


Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Day...I Don't Know

Day 5 was the last update I had here eh?

Been home for exactly 2 weeks now. Human beings adapt pretty well, I have to say. Two weeks sound so long so I guess my blog deserves an update.

Accomplished a few things. Learnt a few things. Failed a few things. 

Arranged a hangout session with a good friend from secondary school a few days ago. Reason why I think it's a pretty huge thing because a) I don't normally meet up with my friends here; b) I applied what I learnt from the people of SA when I met her; because c) She told me a few weeks ago that she had lost her hope in God; and d) It wasn't a coincidence that she chose to contact me, the one over the sea, out of many other friends here, to share her problem with; and e) I kept on saying that I'm always the one receiving and receiving and I also want to give encouragement to someone; and f) I see this as a chance of God using me. 

Although I don't see how significant my help was towards her, but talking through experience, especially during those depressing days in college when I needed people to talk to and to express my emotions emoness, I believe I did make a change. At least now she knows that she has a friend who won't judge her because God didn't tell us to judge and condemn people. Well I'm not here to brag about how good I am as a friend because that's not the truth, but all I want to say is that I see God creating opportunities even though sometimes it's quite hard to realise.

I still can't force myself to wake up at 4, despite having the ability to resist any online activities for the past few days. I don't know if this whole thing is going to work well, but I have to say it's so tough to stay disciplined - it's easy to plan things and get motivated but too bad the motivation doesn't last long and I'm fed up of being in this cycle.

Talking about less serious things, well, I finally had a new haircut yesterday. Actually wanted to cut it way shorter but I was too scared, and yeah, it turned out not like I expected it to be. 

Started teaching myself drumming without drums thanks to a YouTube dude who shared some lessons, haha. I don't think I'm able to go far, considering that I have a whole load of other things to focus on if I want to ace my exams. Just learnt about quarter notes and eighth notes, not sure whether I should continue. Wisdom needed in time management if I really want to get serious in learning drums.

I have to admit I'm scared that time for me to study will not be enough during this break. It's so not fun to procrastinate, but ah, it's not easy to not be me. And it's not easy to be me as well.

Oh I just don't get myself sometimes.

The Depressing Love Song


Here you go, lovely readers. Just a depressing song written last March during the mid semester break while I was having a flu. You can find the story behind the song somewhere in my March blog posts. No, this isn't a song written specially for anyone, and no, I was/am not in love. 

I need to start searching for someone to sing my songs for me. But no one would like to. 

Haha.