Your Questions (Finally Answered)

OK, rather than drifting away with the emo-ness I guess it's better for me to write about some thoughts like I used to do before. This is another critical thinking post - something you only get to see once or twice in a year.

I've been bombarded with a lot of questions which to me, requires a level of critical thinking and precaution. It's not that the questions were too hard to answer, but it's rather because I don't have the skills (or you can say wisdom) to talk seriously. Yes, I can be very professional in talking crab. And yes, I know you've just noticed a spelling mistake there. Thank you.

There are reasons why I avoid certain questions. Reason number one is I need a lot of time to think, because I know I always get things wrong. And normally I will notice about how wrong I was hours after I answer the question.

Here are some questions which I've avoided:

1. Don't you feel warm with that sweater on?

Yes I do, but not to the point that my sweat glands play their function and I have to take it off. Honestly I find comfort and warmth when I have it on, maybe due to the idea that the pockets actually hide my hands whenever I'm nervous and (weirdly) the sweater itself gives me some sort of confidence because it makes me feel cool. You may not know that it's also part of my attempt to look like a street kid. Not to forget that I'm trying to hide my ugly t-shirts too. As absurd as it may sound, yes, those are the reasons why I never take the sweater off even when I have my dinner/walk under the afternoon sun.

2. Are you excited of flying to (insert name of country here)?

Yes I am excited. I was once excited till I told someone that my two other friends and I are going to "end up together in (insert name of country here)". And he answered me back, saying "no, you may not end up in (that country). We know someone who didn't make it". After that incident, I tried to say things with full precaution, afraid that my over-excitedness might lead me towards giving inappropriate answers and statements. The truth is, if I was being myself that day, I would have said something else.

3. Why are you relaxing when everyone in the house is studying?

Because I'm studying when you guys are relaxing! XD To be honest I've been asking the same question to myself too. It's hard to tell whether you're effort is enough or not when you see other people's way of studying. I guess my first semester wasn't really about seeing myself struggle in academics but seeing myself struggle with my own feelings which most of the time make me feel angry of myself. "Am I doing my best?" is the question that I never seem to manage to answer. I know that I can absorb things pretty well when I enjoy doing it, and I believe everyone else does. Thus I don't like the term forcing oneself to study. I've went through the days when studying was very enjoyable and the mood to study came naturally to me. I'm not sure if it still applies to college life, but I believe that I have my own pace in certain things.

Geniuses. Hmm.

There you have it!
Your questions...finally answered.