Stress

อดทนเวลาที่ฝนพรำ
Have patience when it's drizzling

อย่างน้อยก็ทำให้เราได้เห็นถึงความแตกต่าง
It at least enables us to see the differences

เมื่อวันเวลาที่ฝนจาง ฟ้าก็คงสว่างและทำให้เราได้เข้าใจ
By the time the rain has subsided, the sky will brighten up and make us realise

ว่ามันคุ้มค่าแค่ไหนที่เฝ้ารอ
That everything is worth the wait

- ฤดูที่แตกต่าง (Seasons Change), Boyd Kosiyabong.

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I've been hearing the word 'stress' too much lately. I've also probably been uttering it more than the word 'emo', which is more commonly mentioned in this place. I also know pretty well that studies say you are not supposed to even mention that word because it may influence your mindset.

There was a loud sound as if someone had tripped and knocked the table two rows behind me. I was prepared to join the rest of my classmates to give out a chuckle, thinking that maybe it was one of my classmates who clumsily kicked the table leg.

My assumption was wrong. As I glanced, I found out that my classmate actually collapsed, semi-concious on the floor as she fainted when she was about to walk to the front of the class.

She was rushed to the nearby clinic, regained consciousness over there, and soon we found out that the word 'stress' caused all these to happen.

It woke me up from my own stress.

Walk anywhere in this area, and I believe you can immediately conclude that it's a season of stress. Even some juniors are overwhelmed with their first assignments, first tests, etc. and because life is not just about studies, other reasons may also contribute to the anxiety that most of the people already have.

However there are a few things that triggered me to write about this today.

Lecturer A: What...stress?! This is only preparatory level, not even medical school yet!

Lecturer B: All of you are future doctors. You need to have high EQ, not only high IQ.

We make remarks too easily sometimes. Even PMR kids can feel stressed out. No matter which level you are in, it's all the same. That stage of life you are currently in, of course it's big, of course it's hard, and of course you'll view it as something so easy when you look back after leaving that stage.

Well, about having high EQ, I can't comment any further. We never know everything that an individual is facing. We might think that our friend is stressed up because of studies only, but who knows, there's actually a lot more of other things. And as human beings, of course we have true emotions.

Some people have been telling me that I looked stressed out these past few days. I think they assumed about it from the way I kept quiet and looked less hyper. Well I was having a little bit of worries, but I wasn't too stressed out. I managed to control it by trying to control my thoughts.

At the age of 19 I've seen myself being in a stage where I felt that the sky was about to fall. I've faced failures that I never thought of. I've gone through a stage where I thought that I could no longer take it. I've thought about suicide. 

So when that tiny bit feeling of stress approached me a few days ago, I knew that it's not the end of the world. I did choose to frown a little, talk less and appear cranky, because I'm a human being who has emotions, but behind all these, I knew it's just a little season that's going to pass by.

A* scorers would want to maintain what they already have. U grade students would surely want to do far better. Efficient people get distracted too. Procrastinators would definitely want to change to become better.

A* or U, 15 points or 5, efficient person or pro procrastinator, or whatever it is, all of us have our own reasons to feel stressed out.

It's just a season anyway,

and seasons do change.

So I guess now we just need to walk with our raincoats on, and wait for that sunny morning to greet us once again.

Maybe it's a season of stress, but I'm pretty sure it's the time to have persistence as well.

I'm having this sudden stress-free moment, which is weird, which may also mean that someone had prayed for me after seeing my emo face. Who knows. :D