The Ultimate Thank You List

One rainy night in Akasia, I felt inspired to list down these things, and I promised to myself that I'm going to post it here, so here it is:

Thank you for -

1. singing together back from dinner.

2. teaching me the songs.

3. accepting my invitation.

4. asking me.

5. helping me to order food when I'm so blur ><

6. helping me to buy lunch :D

7. saying that you like my laugh.

8. teaching me the lay-up shot, over and over again.

9. allowing me to study in your room.

10. doodling together with me on the whiteboard.

11. texting me those encouraging words.

12. asking me "How are you today?"

13. approaching me when I was emo-ing.

14. smiling back.

15.helping me to print my Bio report.

16. giving me the plaster when I slipped and hurt my pinky toe ><

17. giving me the chances.

18. your jokes.

19. letting me speak.

20. being my friend.

21. forgiving me.

22. noticing at least something about me.

23. saying "hi" to me.

24. having lunch with me.

25. lending me your laptop.

26. the shoulder to cry on.

27. the gifts.

28. sitting beside me in the bus.

29. answering my questions.

30. saying that I'm good in something.

31. the pat on the back.

32. opening the door when I'm too lazy to take out my keys.

33. lending me your guitar.

34. offering to hold my books when I'm standing in the bus.

35. allowing me to join.

36. inviting me for dinner.

37. helping me to cross the road.

38. inviting me to church.

39. helping me with my Chemistry.

40. explaining the Stats questions to me.

41. spending your time to explain Maths.

42. the high-fives.

43. the tissue when I wept.

44. the hugs.

45. the char siew pau.

46. the beer root beer.

47. the nestle chocolate wafer.

48. the ice-skating experience.

49. the photos.

50. ...and other things which is just too impossible to list down.

People may not remember exactly what you did, or what you said, but they will always remember how you made them feel.

I choose to remember all three.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart! :D

2011

Last Year..

1. In some aspects yeah I think I've improved, in other words I did grow up. Left home and learnt to deal with a lot of things alone, with some help from awesome friends. Physically - gained weight, grew taller, so yeah..

2. Confidence..it's a huge word. I need more time. Although some good things did make me feel confident sometimes, I don't really think I'm confident in a good way.

3. Yes! :) 

4. Yes! :D

5. No. I really need to improve and get back the old feeling of studying. I need to enjoy studying. Too bad I think this year I'm doing quite bad academically. I need to change. 

6. Ow yeah. I always hated changes, but now I'm looking forward to (good) changes in my life. Didn't feel homesick as I thought I would feel when I first arrived in SA. Faced a lot of challenges, yeah there were tears (and sweat and blood - no kidding) which in the end revealed to me that there are a lot of things to learn when you're far away from home. 

7. Friendly? I guess people became friendly to me first. I don't think I've done my best in socializing with my classmates in M8, I didn't really care, to be honest. Now that's one of the things I would like to change next year. Jing said it's important to have a close bond with classmates, and I have to admit it's very true. I don't know..some people have been very nice in my class , but I'm still looking for a real bond. Maybe I've found it, but didn't care to appreciate it? Friendship is one big thing. I thank God for the awesome friends this year, who've just simply been there for me, and I hope next year I'll be a good friend to them too. 

8. Yes, did read some novels while waiting for my SPM results. After entering college I find myself reading textbooks more than I read newspapers, and weirdly now I don't even know how to read the newspaper anymore. 

9. This year is an awesome guitar-ing year, I have to say. One of the reasons is that I had the chance to play a lot of guitars of different brands and from different owners. This is the first time in my life that I played so many guitars in just a few months, thanks to the awesome guitarists who had given me the chance to abuse their guitars to the max. My fingers were indeed happy to meet Takamine, SX, (two) Santa Cruz, Groovy, Yamaha F-210, J.D. Marvell. Haha. 

10. Learn another language? Ghahaha, learnt how to speak in English (again). Ow yeah.

7/10. Not bad.

Wishlist...

no. 3 and no. 4 yet to be fulfilled. 

So yeah, 2011 ain't bad at all! :)

Random Moments. 2011.

This, (both hands on the basketball)...

is..a fadeaway shot. You take a jump shot while jumping backwards, away from the basket, like this..

*jumps backwards, throws the ball*

...AND THE BALL ENTERED THE HOOP. :O

-true story. During a basketball game with Jing one evening. Made me realise that badminton and vollleyball were just not my type of sports. :P

Nah, it wasn't a true fadeaway shot like this one, but it was among the many perasan moments I had in 2011. XD

I Read..

..books..

..halfway nowadays.

And now that I'm almost reaching 19, I have this regret of not reading more books when I was in secondary school. 

I used to grow up with books, having bed-time stories almost every night as a kid, borrowing up to five books from the library every week and going to the bookstore to get at least two books every month. As I get older, everything changed. Moved to an area where the nearest library isn't decent enough, books are darn expensive and the awesome state library is too far from my home. Well, I sound like complaining, but we cannot blame the people of this country for their lack of interest in reading.

As far as I can remember, I started to read less once I entered secondary school. Academic things and textbooks suddenly became the main priority. Carrying an English novel was not a style in a not-so-town-school like mine. Honestly English has forever been my favourite subject, and I love language subjects more than science and maths, but I can't state a reason why I read less other than one typical reason: I didn't have time to do so.

Gone were the days when I can just finish a novel in one sitting. 

I believe that if I had read more during my early teen years, I could probably write way better than this now. I had a very good, steady start as a young kid, alas I didn't continue with it. So kids, pick up a book today. Before you get old like me and start questioning yourself. 

And yeah, I keep on jumping from one book to another after reading each book halfway this holiday. Me too lazy or the books are too boring? :X

Just an Old Song

..which reminds me about quite a number of things..like..

- how I used to like Simple Plan's songs.

- how I listened to a lot of their songs when I was in my early teen years. Ouch. That made me sound old.

- my dreams of jamming with a bunch of people like in the MV lol.

- and ah, this is my type of music haha.

- I am obviously being nostalgic again.

- and showing signs of talking to myself.

******

 

Been uninspired to blog. Trying hard to minimise my time online. In other words, trying to get a real life, and enjoying the true meaning of Christmas.

Feeling..errr..

NOSTALGIC

adjective

experiencing or exhibiting nostalgia, a sentimental or wistful yearning for the happiness felt in a former place, time, or situation.

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I don't know what's wrong, maybe it's just because we're coming towards the end of 2011, these past few days I've been reminiscing probably too much of the old days. Reading my inbox and sent items make me feel like reading a diary - I have messages dated back before SPM, during SPM, the holidays, the interviews, old birthday wishes, MDS stories...

...which made me smile.

This afternoon the drama playing on TV happened to play the song 'Kau Ilhamku', and ah, it brought back that funny feeling. It was the first song that I learnt on my guitar. 

'Aishiteru', the hit song before SPM among the boys in my class seems to never die. I lost count of how many times I listened to it on the bus to college, and when I return here, it seems to follow me. That's enough to remind me of the video Gab, Mav and Arbut recorded before Add Maths class. I watched it again a few nights ago and it was a wrong decision. I almost cried. No one can deny the fact that your Form 5 classmates are among the awesomest people you meet in your lifetime. 

Tonight I suddenly remembered of Peterpan's songs, picked up my guitar and played a few of them.

Sometimes it's just weird how songs can bring back those old feelings which make you appreciate on how you've spent your teen years. Honestly my secondary school life was not that bad, despite the fact that I kept on looking for the meaning of true friendship, I realise that I spent my time with a lot of different people and was never really close to a particular friend. When the time came for us to know each other well, we separate classes. New bonds start to form every year. And now everyone is moving on with new bunch of people.

That's when you feel like opening your old album, skimming through the pictures and wondering what are these people doing now. When you're thinking of them, do they even remember you? Perhaps they don't ever care to think about those memories. And that's what soon make you realise on such a fool you are for still dwelling in the past when everyone has started to carry on with their lives. 

But still the photos give you some sort of happiness as if you're living it once again. 

I somehow like the idea of the old days when we develop photos and not just store them in the digital form. Like what had happen to my hard disc, it caused almost all of my Sem 1 photos to be gone just like that. Nothing beats the feeling of holding and looking at a photo in a true, real photo form. I even felt a bit nostalgic (even though the memories have nothing to do with me) when I looked at my dad's old pictures in the 70's and early 80's. Hmm..now imagine what are we going to leave for our children and grandchildren to see in the future if we lose the digital form?

...so you thought only songs and pictures made me feel nostalgic? Gah.

YouTube is also a place that can bring some sort of sentimental feeling. Don't tell me you can't feel anything when you watch and listen to videos like the theme song of Pokemon or some random video you watched years ago which suddenly appeared in your mind once more. 

I dunno what's happening to me, seriously.

I feel..that I feel too much, sometimes.

Happy 3rd Birthday!!

:D

Day 29

Thinking about the future...

"Download a lot of movies now..then watch it when you're alone during Chinese New Year break."

Huh. Nice suggestion, sis.

So yeah, I'm currently downloading movies. And past papers. And songs. Enjoying the fast internet connection to the max while I still can.

The question now is..should I go back during the Chinese New Year holidays? Arghh. Can't imagine being alone in Akasia. In the same time, I want to save money especially after realising how much I've spent all these while. 

Planning to not go back at all next sem. Upgrading of being far away from home for 5 months. I don't know if it's a good idea, to wait till the end-of-sem holidays to finally go back. It's not that bad to be in Akasia, but if others are not around during the break, I'll feel emo-er than ever. 

...and when I see the academic calender, it crushes my heart. Next sem looks short. There's going to be a lot of things to learn. I shall make full use of the holidays.

So I'm not coming home...till May. 

I will survive.

That Feeling is Gone :D

Yeah it's impressive that my feelings are as changeable as the weather :P Anyway, I was browsing through some songs in my files and then I suddenly remembered one song...

that made me smile.

An awesome cover by one YouTuber:


Ah, reminds me of those good old days in ISCF Penrissen.
..and the fact that no, I am not alone. :)

That Feeling

GO AWAY LAHHHHH

Why does the slightest breeze gives me such a chill?

Cold

It's a cold and lonely night

and I'm sitting at the bedside.

There's something making me feel not right

but there's nothing I can do to fight.

I put my headphones on

and the music starts to play

The title is 'Our Song'

but hey, where are you today?

This feeling strikes again

as I try hard to ignore

It feels like walking in the rain

alone, just like before.

Gah. Cold. Cannot sleep. Feeling emo.

Day 26

Oh no moments.

Mistakes.

Hmm.

Report. Day 25.

Yikes. Time flies.

Finally got some fresh air today. Managed to force myself to sleep early last night (if you call 2am early). Before eventually falling asleep, the only thing that I realised was the clock which was showing 4am. Hmm..2 hours of trying to fall asleep...

Talking about fresh air..well..I can count the days when I came out of home since the day I came here. Uh? What happened to my English. :/ sentence sounds confusing to me. Went to various places today, including this weird interesting shop.

Probably this made it interesting.

Nothing special actually. It was rather annoying to me, walking in a crowd of people, ehem, to be specific - in India Street. Seemed that everyone passing by was smoking. That's my problem.

Anyway, these are the things which I've done during the past few days:

Photographing Kitty and hating her for being cute. Also hating the fact that I don't have a better camera to snap her elegant poses.

Helped my mum a little bit, as usual. She asked me to help with these leaves, too bad I dunno how to describe what the heck is this vegetable and what did I do to it. Oh snap, this sounds so wrong. I was actually quite lazy to help :P but after seeing this...

No problemo. 

Mum said I had this face called "ka ka enggai" while helping her, which literally means want want don't wan't. So it basically means something in between want and don't want. In other words, I wanted to help her, but I in the same time I didn't want to. Hmm. How could that be possible? o.O

Anyway, today I found something quite nostalgic.

I thought they have stopped selling these.

Been ages since I last saw these sweets. Lol.

Some other good news, I started doing some revision on Bio and Chemistry. OHH TEARSS OF JOYYY :') Suddenly had this feeling to study. Planning to go ahead with the coming chapters in Sem 2 so I won't be so blur next year. Ah I feel good saying it out here, so that if I fail to accomplish this plan, I'm gonna embarrass myself yeehaaa. 

Hmm. Let me think of other things..ah, the drawing which I wanted to show:

Don't be fooled. Me no good in drawing. Me traced it X)

...I also went to the music shop once again today, and now I suddenly remember (the picture reminded me) that I actually wanted to buy a (cheap) pair of drumsticks :/ how did I ever forget? Ended up buying something else. Ngahaha.

Well I guess this is how I should end this 'report'. 

I feel alive today. 

and I shall feel alive too tomorrow.

uh?

3 Weeks...

Three weeks of doing nothing

equals to 21 days saying "oh no!"

After days and nights guitar-ing

I realise there's just another 3 (and a half) weeks to go..

Another failed attempt of writing a ermm..poem? After blogwalking I suddenly thought of writing something today..something that I'll be able to read in the future that records what have I done during my first semester holidays. You see, all these while I've been over-focusing on writing things that don't reflect what I do at all. No ramblings like I used to do (a lot) before college life. I somehow miss the time when I was a crazy kid, participated more in class, writing almost everything that I experienced in school (not here but in my journal of course), those days when I worry less but seem to be genius enough to not study all day..those days when people called me Fee instead of my real name..and the days I acted lame most of the time...

This holiday I feel the need to recover to my own self. Looking back, actually I didn't really be myself last semester. I'm more than what people see. The truth is, I've been trying to hard to be as good as others last sem, and I only notice about this fact when I'm here at home. It hurts. I see too many people with amazing personalities and it sucks when I think I want to be like them. It doesn't make me any better, it just made me lose confidence even more than before. 

I've also realised that people with a high level of confidence don't really think of what others think of them. Or maybe they don't think too much (or probably feel too much). And living this life with a lot of uncertainties in relationships and friendships is quite torturing.

ARGHHHH WHY AM I SO EMO?

Gah. Now I think I should start to recall what have I done for the past three weeks. It's so unbelievable that I have only another 3.5 weeks of relaxing. At first it was quite difficult to adapt to home (I kept on comparing things here with Akasia until my sister became so fed up of listening). However it's magnificent (or err...terrible?) to see that old habits seem to arise again and discipline deteriorates very easily. Very very easily.

Guitar-ing has become funner that ever before with the callus growing back on my fingers. Woohoo. Gone were the days when pressing the fretboard made me feel like a beginner once more. Honestly, before I leave this world, there are three things (related to guitar) I would love to achieve, 1. Jam on a rooftop. 2. Jam with a friend or a bunch of guitar enthusiasts, novice or intermediate I don't care..it's the passion that matters most. 3. Buy an electric guitar. A cheap, fake one would do well, but if I become rich, Fender Strat, Gibson Les Paul and Gretsch something ( I don't know the specific name of model but it looks like this:)

*atempt to upload picture failed*

Arghhh I was actually about to upload some pictures and write less, but what to do..I've been trying for more than an hour =='' ...and now it's raining cats and dogs in Kuching yo! Reminds me of the lazy days of walking out for dinner during the study leave in you-know-where.

Basically I've forgotten on what to say after wandering to YouTube, so yeah, till we meet again in another chapter. Astalavista baby.

Eh wait -- after googling, I found out it's supposed to be...hasta la vista, baby.

o.O

Wowww :O

Since I said hello to college life, I haven't been following any news about the Thai entertainment industry. Therefore you can say that I'm a bit left behind on the current updates...including this one...

Ehem. A Fender Strat..yeah..??

Look who's playing ittttt!!!!!

Yeah, a seven year old boy. I don't know much about this boy, just happened to watch his MV on YouTube yesterday night. At first I didn't really care..but then when I watched him playing solo, oh wow. I became speechless. He somehow reminds me of the kid in School of Rock. Well it's not surprising that there are many other guitar prodigies out there after all.

It's just funny to read a comment on YouTube staying something like "Ah, I'm 16 and I haven't even played an electric guitar before." I played an electric guitar for not more that a minute a week before I reached 18, but that doesn't count because it's a fake Stratocaster. This kid is so cool to experience such achievement at a very young age.

I don't know if it's just me, but *ehem*, he looks hot in this picture LOL.

Awwwww :D

He sure is enjoying the attention that he's getting, hope he's gonna grow up like other kids :P

I can see that this kid is enjoying very much on what he's doing, and you can tell that he has a true interest in playing. Well I hope he'll become successful in the future.

Nong Mark's MV. I think I'm in love with this kid *_*

..and yeah, I've watched some other clips of him playing live. It's really him who's playing.

Bwahaha!

ps. Yes, I'm a fan of Zits since secondary school :D

December

Two words: Cold and laziness.

One month to go..before these carefree moments end.

No wonder Taylor Swift said she'll go back to December all the time :P

ILY :)

I've been thinking of this since I came back here and I have this feeling that tells me to express it out...and since December has just started, I must tell it out here so that in the future I can smile as I reread this post. 

It's funny how a person's heart can just change in a few months, or is it more correct if I say it's amazing how God can change a person's heart in just a short while? Yes, I feel...that I feel too much, or you can say I feel a lot, I feel more than I think. 

I'm glad I've changed. I'm glad that I look at you in a different perspective now.

...and it's never too late to love.

I love you, and someday I'll make you proud.