Why I Love Reading Comments

Originality

A few weeks ago I posted an entry about how comments on YouTube and entertainment blogs can make me laugh out loud (or at least grin). Some comments are cute, informative, and the best ones are always the funny ones.

I like the idea that they are brief, yet original and entertaining. Most of them reflect the immediate response of a person. Some are rude. Some have serious grammatical errors. Yet still, the best thing is that they are genuine from the commentors' thoughts.

Sometimes people have too much time and they treat a comment like a forum thread. They reply to each other. I don't like this idea, especially on controversial videos.

Some people reply to help. Like when people ask "oh I'm so in love with this actor, what's his name?" or something like this:

Some are generous ones, like providing synopsis to the curious ones.

These people show their emotions. Very original thoughts, I have to say.

I love the inspirational ones too.

and this one too XD

Those are my reasons to read while waiting for videos to load.

p/s: Usernames are censored to protect privacy. I've noticed that by pasting all those comments here, I've also literally copied what these people say. Let me know if you don't like your comment being showed publicly here. I don't want to deal with copyright issues. Yikes.

Peace.

Looking Back (and Ahead)

"I say this because I know what I am planning for you", says the LORD. "I have good plans for you, not plans to hurt you. I will give you hope and a good future". - Jeremiah 29:11

I can't remember when was the first time these words were introduced to me. However, I will never forget who was the person to inspire me with this promise from God. It's none other than Mr. Song Ting Kee, my Maths teacher during form 2. He was one of the ISCF teachers too, and I admired him because it was really enjoyable to listen to him when he shares God's words and when he teaches Maths too.

Whenever I feel in doubt about the future, I always remember those words. And if you thought that getting good grades in SPM kills all of your doubts, it's wrong.

Let's look back to the past. During my form 4 years, I wasn't a happy student. Well, yes I am lying. I was happy, but not so confident with myself. I hated form 4 because the culture shock was torturing. Imagine that you've always been scoring A and at least B during your younger days, then suddenly in form 4 you get ugly grades. You are certainly not alone.

The chronicle of my downfall went like this:
1. Ugly grades.
2. Felt neglected by teachers (felt so used to being a teachers pet during younger days).
3. Started being a bit less nerdy, good coz made new friends. New fun, crazy, chatterbox friends.
4. Onlined a lot because of stress probably.
5. Didn't care much why my Add Maths was an E.
6. Relaxed a little bit, didn't push myself hard enough, started to memorize a lot of songs instead of doing revision.

The lab became the coolest place in school when SPM was getting nearer.

Luckily that only lasted for a year. In form 5, I became determined and started to set goals to beat the class top-scorer (LOL, I never managed to) but I did improve. And that was good enough.

The chronicle of my uprise was something like this:
1. Learnt that I scored a C/D/E not because of stupidity but because...(drumroll please)...school exam formats were weird, and not similar to SPM, yeah I mean those annoying monthly tests. In my fist Chemistry monthly test, I got an E. It was really difficult. Really really difficult.
2. Add maths apparently became fun when you know how to do it. It's addictive too. I did a lot of them between the two trials, scored B+ and that managed to boost up my confidence. In fact really confident for at least an A-.
3. Did loads of history short notes. Before KK meetings, between lessons, I devoted myself with this stuff which I never reread word by word anyway.
4. Didn't go to YouTube for months before SPM. YouTube is addictive because there is always a "chain reaction".
5. Started to become addicted to Chemistry lessons. Started to listen more during Physics and not let my sleepy eyes defeat me.
6. Slept less late at night. Not very early, but just OK - only to complete homeworks and not because of onlining.
7. Had fun at school. Played basketball (and even futsal) every Monday morning even the week before trial exams. Posed for photos. Laughed with the gang.

...and a lot more.

Thanks to the anime Slam Dunk, I became a basketball lover. Played a lot on Mondays.

During my final months in school, I wrote in my journal that "to balance this fun and effort would be a sweet success". Yes. I was correct.

I had fun in form 5, I wasn't a quiet student who only studied and mingled with top-scorers. My gang was the one who sat on the last table behind everyone in the Bio lab. Eh wait, I mean the 2nd last table. Being carefree and less kiasu doesn't make you stupid. We knew when to joke and when to listen.

What I'm trying to say here is...enjoy your schooldays. This entry is for those who's in the same boat as me when I was a secondary school student.

I would like to thank all of the teachers who taught me in SMK Penrissen No.1 (ok, my identity is finally revealed, I never mentioned this) for making my schooldays enjoyable. Also to the teachers who never taught me but was very nice to me. I have an unexplainable bond to this school - it's really special in its own way. The memories, the silly little things, the mistakes, the moments I've experienced there have certainly made me a better person. This anak jati of the school is really proud of being one ex-student of Penrissen.

This is my favourite in school: The Stairs. I exercise less at home, so this kept me fit. I call it "the stairs of hope" because it made me remember one scene from the movie "Beautiful Boxer".

Looking Ahead

I still don't know what's ahead of me. I have dreams and goals. But I won't tell here first. I want to stay motivated, focused and succeed. Secondary school life is officially over, now it's time to defreeze the frozen.

The Wednesday

Was it a Wednesday or the Wednesday?

It has been a tradition for bloggers to go frenzy posting about their SPM results. I've read a lot of blog entries (yeah I blogsearched a lot) about experiences of others regarding their results day. I don't know to categorise it as showing off or sharing stories. Well I prefer the latter.

I didn't really sleep well last night. I only managed to sleep at 3am after 2 hours of rolling. Woke up early, took a pretty long shower, and took up the decision to dress to impress. I've never been so nervous in my life. Yet. The nervousness was worse than sitting for the exam itself.

Went to school at 9.45 after minutes of nagging my parents. I was obviously both excited and nervous at the same time. It's great to meet again with my buddies, Eppy, Ann and Jas. Plus the rest of the classmates. Guys looked the same. Aldrin had a slightly long hair which was awesome because I never saw him like that. Some had dyed their hair a bit. I can't remember who.

Waiting was not torturing. We saw our English teacher, Miss Roseline and I went frenzy. She congratulated me so I knew there must be something good with my English paper. We also greeted Mr. Lee who was in a rush to enter class.

Now I realise why those people in TV cry when taking their results. I thought they were a bunch of show-offs who forced themselves to cry HAHA. I was wrong. I cried too. I didn't realise I was crying in front of many people. So embarrassing. The first thought which crossed my mind was, phew, thank God, I mad my parents happy. Actually I couldn't sleep last night because of thinking about my parents. The fear. You know lah.

It wasn't a happy ending some of my friends, but it wasn't an ending after all. This is just the beginning. I feel a tinge of guilt that I'm so happy now. The future is still unpredictable. One thing's for sure, God has plans for me. I'll continue to do my best. This is the beginning. This is the beginning.

Hello world?

Sick

I am literally sick waiting for the results

Flu

Flu flu go away,
I want to take my results on Wednesday.

Music Review: Seua Yai

Hello blog. First of all, I have to say that this isn't going to be a review which looks like a review because I'm a noob in writing reviews.

I'm a bit surprised to see that this band isn't so well-known compared to any other Thai rock bands. Even searching for their photos is a bit difficult job to do. Oh, OK - wait. The last time they released their album is about 5 years ago. No wonder.

I know I've been very late in discovering about these guys. It all started when I watched 'The Letter', a movie starring Num Attaporn (yeah, the vocalist). I began to listen to some of their songs after discovering about this band. At first, some songs weren't so impressive when I listened to them on YouTube. However, after listening to the mp3 versions, headphones on, WOW they are awesome!

One thing I like about Thai music is their awesomeness in rock/pop rock genre. I'm an avid fan to rock/pop rock music, I love listening to the beat of drums, guitar solos, etc. and I love this band's music. Some songs, like Wat-too Klaai Pleng and Dai Yin Laeo Hai Neuay have really nice guitar solos. They're relaxing and rock-ish at the same time. That's what I love.

Talking about the band's name (เสือใหญ่), it actually means 'Big Tiger'. Not bad to me. One good thing is that they named their band in Thai, it's good coz it shows their identity - compared to a lot of Thai bands out there that have weird english names (decided not to mention LOL). I love their logo too ^^

First album (2005)

Second album (2006)

OK. I don't know what else to write. Message to professional reviewers who found this entry coincidentally: DON'T KILL ME. I've told y'all earlier that I don't know how to write a review.

Khan Kluay 2 on TV Tomorrow!

8am. I will be in front of the TV tomorrowwwwwwww!!!

I am sooo excited, that's why I shared this as my status on fb. HAHA. Unfortunately, it is dubbed in BM by Akim and Mila. I actually want to watch this movie with the real Thai voices. My two reasons:

1. The original voices are by Num Attaporn and Anne Thongprasom!
2. I watched the 'behind the scenes'. Original voices portray way better emotions. You should see Anne Thongprasom cry.

Why on earth should they dub this animation movie from the beginning? Subtitles could have solved the problem. But ah, I forgot, it is an animation movie. Some kids can't read subtitles yet. LOL.

Waking up early tomorrow. Tuning in to channel Astro Ceria. WHAT? Yep, you've heard it. ASTRO CERIA. LOL.

p/s. BM version is "Jumbo Gajah Biru". Another LOL. XD

I Don't Wanna Live a Hi-So Life

Whoooossshhh...

The results are going to be announced next week. Good news, my brain is actively functioning because excessive thoughts about what will happen in the future are approaching more than ever. Even when I eat, I think about who will I become when I grow older. That's the bad part. Over-thinking leads to mild depression and mild depression leads to chronic worrying.

Let me explain about the title first. I used the term "Hi-So" because I've been over-exposed to Thai entertainment blogs. Forgive me. Google up if you want to know the meaning.

Growing up as an ordinary kid from a family who's not rich but not poor (yeah sorry, didn't know how to explain better) makes me sometimes ponder what if I'll be very rich one day. I certainly don't know how to live a rich life. Do rich people live normal lives? This is how my life is for the past 17 years I've been living:

1. When I want something,sometimes I get it, but sometimes I don't. Quite balanced at times. Most entertainment-related stuffs are purchased by using own savings (the money which is supposed to be used to buy food at school haha). These include Detective Conan comics, DVDs and money-wasting items according to adults.

2. When someone (especially friends) get something new, expensive and cool, I will start dreaming to have one as soon as possible and start questioning myself why does certain people get things so damn easily without even trying. These include electric guitars, keyboards, DSLR cameras and a lot more. Yes, I sound ungrateful, but don't get me wrong. I am very honest here. I am thankful for what I have. Sometimes I just have to open my eyes a bit wider to see that I am fortunate enough compared to those who live even more difficult lives.

3. I hate attending parties held by rich people. The only thing I love is the food. Again, don't get me wrong. Sometimes I just think I don't belong to these group of people (especially if they are distant relatives). No offense. No further elaboration.

4. I love my old t-shirts. The really old ones. I wear them most of the time when I'm at home, because new, branded shirts makes me hot. I mean hot, not 'hot'. Do rich people wear old t-shirts? I honestly don't know much about this.

Back to the main idea. The next step that I'll be taking will pretty much influence my future career. I used to have a lot of ambitions when I was younger, but sadly when I really need those thoughts now, I found out that perhaps I didn't have any ambition at all. I have dreams of living a better life than now, but at the same time, I'm afraid of the changes in my life.

Yes, the fear of changes. Bad sign.

I've been living this simple life so comfortably for the past 17 years and now I'm afraid to be rich. Or poorer. The truth is, I don't want to live a very rich life. And certainly not a poor life too. I want to live like how I've been raised by my parents, but slightly richer than this. But not too rich.

What should I become next?

I've also realised that in the time being, this question is not so important. The main question should be

What will my results be?

then

Where should I go next?

then

How good will I score in university/wherever I continue my studies

then

WHAT should I become? This is the career-choosing part. Unfortunately, when thinking, my thoughts get so deep, and I skip all the previous questions - making this question the main one.

Probably this is what the Thais say as "Thinking too much". Thinking too much really kills.

A very honest entry from me. Don't take it too seriously.
Just my two cents.
Stay tuned for more.

I Cannot See The Future

YEAH IT'S HORRIBLY DEPRESSING, DAMNIT!

I cannot see the future... :(

Something is really wrong with me, but I don't know what :(

There are stuffs in my mind...a lot of 'em..

Yeah, I cannot see my future...

Are you sure it'll be OK?

Good to know that.

OK. No one. So I am not alone after all.

Phew~

Oh no, I left high school months ago..

You're right.

A'aa..

A lot, I tell you.

Sooner or later, I will still have to decide it..

I enjoyed my schooldays :')

I had a lot of fun at school too. Probably too much fun.

Yea, studies..friendship..but no love..LOL

I learned a lot from this drama. And sometimes it's just funny that even after leaving secondary school life, I still find inspiration from it. The scenes above pretty much describe my feelings right now.


Credits to the video owner. As usual, thank you photoscape!

Doubts, Uncertainties, Worries

"It's a great time but suddenly you're 17 and you have responsibilities. That's when you come to realise that the people around you expect you to pass that exam and go on to study at a good university" - Jira Malikool.

This relaxing period in my life is ending soon. To be really honest, I'm feeling quite nervous. I'm nervous to face the new things which are coming my way. Every night, my mind is filled with nothing but uncertainties. What should I do after the results are announced?

Then I realised a harsh fact. All these while, I've never made any huge decisions in my life. I've never faced any situation which requires me to fully think on my own, situations which will later bring me to either something good or something bad based on my own decision. That is the only thing which is making my heart ache a lot now.

Yesterday, I was this cheerful secondary school kid, exchanging jovial acts with my fellow friends and now, I've realised that I'm in my final stage of all those days. In just a few days, I'm going to embark this journey of uncertainties. Truthfully, one of the journeys I fear most because what I choose today is going to determine my future. And I'm still in doubt of all my decisions.

Am I alone? Am I the only one thinking of this? Will all of my dreams become reality? What should I do next? These questions are killing me.

Whatever lies ahead, wherever my future takes me to, at least I'm very sure of something. God has plans for me. Only thinking of that makes me feel better.

"A single day can determine the rest of your life". Really?

This is one of the most honest entries from me.

Yours Truly,
Fee

On TV Today

Watched Detective Conan just now and guess what was going on in today's episode? It was quite funny because Mitsuhiko (and not Conan) solved the case in just a 30-minutes episode. It was funny to me. Normally if the case is solved by Conan, it will take 2 episodes. What an irony.

And because I had too much time to kill, I watched this too

Don't get me wrong, I am not an avid fan of sinetrons. However, this one is so hard to forget about. Whenever I think of doing something else instead of watching this, I would always find myself magically already sitting comfortably on the sofa with eyes glued to the screen of my family's 21 inch Panasonic TV.


Honestly I don't really like this drama because it's too dramatic and to make matters worse, what I'm watching right now is only half of the complete series. After doing some research on-line, I found out that it has more than 200 episodes. WHAT?!

However, like I said just now, it's too good to be missed. The actors and actresses are soooo awesome in acting, they just made the whole thing look real. The tears, the smiles, oh gosh - not to mention their looks. Everyone has this unbelievably beautiful facial skin that causes me to sometimes curse whenever they zoom the cameras because the actresses (even the actors) do not have a single blackhead on their noses. Yeah I love typing out long sentences to make it sound wahhhhh.

In today's episode, Ilham confessed to his dad that he loves Safa. And he cried. That girl is one lucky girl.

Drama after drama, I realise that it's not going to end even after I enter college life. I mean, this sinetron this not ending soon so I'm pretty much wasting my time because there will be a slim chance that I'll be able to watch the final episode, especially if I will be away from home after the results are announced.

That was my story about what happened on TV today :P

Classmates

It's been a few months since I left my life as a secondary school student. The part I hate most is the boredom because my social life is half dead without school. I don't go out to watch movies with friends, I've never been in a car which is driven by any of my friends, I never went shopping with anyone besides my family. Call me a lifeless nerd. I don't care. I do have a life anyway.

Back to the topic. I used to think that half of these 34 kids were strangers of my life, suddenly appearing to be my classmates when Form 4 life started. If you read my previous posts and my school journal, you'll realise how much I hated my Form 4 days. I didn't adapt to the changes well, I missed my old classmates since Form 1 to Form 3. Little did I know that these 34 kids are the ones that I'm going to appreciate most when my schooldays end.

Entering Form 5, I started to love my classmates. That made me forget about my old classmates and I came out with a new theory. Your Form 4 and Form 5 classmates will be your friends for life. No matter how much you'll forget about your school life, you will always remember your final year classmates. Especially when there are rivalry between classes >:-)

In case I forget about them someday, I've decided to write about them today.

Aaron - Sometimes I think he's not the same age as me. I mean in some aspects of life, he's older (like how he drives). He's a bit crazy, sometimes annoying to some teachers, but he's OK to me. He makes the class laugh a lot so that's one great thing to think about him.

Arbut - The most lovable guy in the class. Everyone in the school, including teachers, love him. I don't know the secret to his success. I'll never forget him because I bought a second hand Harry Potter novel from him.

Aldrin - Honestly if there was no Facebook, I would never have the chance to communicate with this guy. A nice guy, but I never talked a lot with him.

Alex - A quiet guy, but in same same time friendly. He just doesn't talk too much.

Alice - I know she loves Kpop a lot. Seldom talked to her, but yeah she's a nice girl.

Angela - I will never forget this girl, the one I still text with ever after SPM. She's the closest to me during my Form 5 days besides Dila n Eppy. She's loud at times, guys love her because she's cute and she loves Physics because to her, it's just common sense.

Avy - The most genius student in my class. Despite being a consistent top-scorer, she blends well with everyone in the class. Proof:

Pick Yee - Class captain! Very queit person, but yea she's of course a nice girl.

Jun Li - My classmate since Form 1. The friendliest person you'll ever meet!

Su Hui - A really sweet girl. What more can I say? :)

Ai Ley - She loves anime. That's all I know about her. Ahaha.

Cynthia - The next genius after Avy. Super great in Add Maths.

Dila - The closest to me (of course, because she sat next to me in the class). Also closest to me besides Ann and Eppy. I love her because she's very nice to me even though we seem to have a lot of differences. She's also my main victim when it comes to storytelling. Most of the time she listens to whatever story I share although I know most of them are boring. One of the persons who I appreciate most during my schooldays.

Eppy - The prettiest in the class, or should I say the prettiest person in the entire school? I love it when she gets crazy (especially during assembly, after we retired from becoming prefects). We joke a lot, and I have to say I have a lot of nice school memories with this person.

Gab - He loves pretty girls. He plays the guitar far better than me even though he started learning when we were in Form 4. I still see him when I go to church LOL. Most of the pics of our From 5 days comes from his camera.

Gareth - I LOVE HIS GUITAR SKILLS! A very nice person.

Harvie - The only person who became my classmate for the longest period of time, which is since Primary 5. Harvie is a super awesome guy friend. I will always remember him as my Chemistry table-mate!

Helen - A very nice girl. She doesn't like taking pictures. Sometimes funny in class. Likes teasing people in a friendly way :D

Hycellema - Quiet, but once you listen to her (especially during ujian lisan) wow you will fall from your chair.

Jessie - Doesn't talk much, but when she talks you'll know she's friendly.

Lan Yien - Wowowow..super duper hardworking and studious girl. After the trial exams before SPM, we didn't even see her because she was on a study leave. And we were still goofing around while trying to grasp Add Maths :P

Su Nyuk - Very quiet person but yeah once you listen to her speaking English you will fall from your seat.

Lenny - I hate hated him. Sometimes I hate him, sometimes I like him. He's not that evil, it's just that errr haha. I still remember when my other classmates boo to him, I'm the type of person who would generously add my voice too haha. Don't want to elaborate more, later he'll kill me :D

Leslie - A silent joker I call him. I almost forgot about this, but here's what I found in my journal: "My favourite is when Leslie can throw out a pen by using his knuckles. This dude is cool!" Towards the day when SPM was getting closer, he always asked me Add Maths questions even though he knew how bad I was in Add Maths :P

Jin Cheng - The dude with the melodious voice. His charming looks is also something easy to be remembered :P

Kah Chun - The only boy in the top 10. Extremely smart in Add Maths. Owns a smart look. I always say he looks like the Minister of Health and also our Add Maths teacher.

Marc - I talk to him sometimes, but never really had a chat with him. Good boy category :D

Mav - The mamat jiwang rock. Inseparable twin to Azzuan. Owns a red kapok which became my victim some time ago. I did post something about that incident not long ago. I talk to this guy a lot. Well, not too lot but not seldom too.

Azzuan - The newcomer. The smiling ladykiller. He actually has this unique, natural sweet smile. Everyone agrees with this statement. Inseparable twin to Mav. Proof:

Shikin - A very nice person. She's the tallest girl in the class. She doesn't talk much, but yea she's friendly.

Shue - Hardworking in studies, sometimes crazy in the class :D

Yik Yee - Friendly girl, also very hardworking in studies.

Ghee Seng - When it comes to being a leader, this dude is always one of them. Teachers love him. A lot.

Viviana - She always asked me my secrets in studying as if I'm one genius student :D A nice person, but rather quiet in class. I talk to her at times, especially when waiting for the BM club meeting to start.

Phew~ I took more that an hour to type these out. Really had to choose the correct words and phrases to use, afraid that these people will kill me after reading this. Whatever. None of my classmates blog HAHA.

And now...presenting the picture of the day:

Hope these people remember me as a crazy, loud, awesome classmate. Just kidding. It would be enough remembering me as a nice person. Itu pun if I was really nice to you. LOL.

Photograph-Fee

First and foremost, nobody in the house calls me Fee. (This is not related to what I'm going to share). Enough with the intro.

Just want to share some pics I found while digging my pen drive.

Location: Taman Rimba Sama Jaya.
Why was I there: Environmental Week
Year: 2008
Genre: Rock Theme: Nature (?)

Location: Sarawak Cultural Village aka Kampung Budaya Sarawak
Why was I there: School Trip after PMR
Year: 2008

I was am one great photographer. (Self motivation, not more than that).